Vacation Compilation

:] howdy y'all! So Christmas is over :[ it's not quite new years YET. but i wanna get one last blog in before the new year turns over.

So for Christmas, well the five days before Christmas i was in Paris. it was pretty good. I went to the Louvre and saw the Mona Lisa! And a bunch of other really old historical things, but i really wanted to see the Mona Lisa. And I did. :P haha, what else? oh! i climbed the Eiffel Tower..Yep, i was kinda forced by peer pressure [thanks Stuart] to take the stairs. Some little kids at the top told me they counted and it was over 800 steps. FML. Went shopping, of course. Got cute new sunglasses at the GIANT Gallery Lafayette. and by GIANT i mean HUGE. its THREE buildings. with like five stories each, well maybe four. But regardless its HUGE! Way bigger than any Macy's you'll find in USA. I also got to go to a concert in Notre Dame. the choir had adults to children. they were SO good. it was really good. Those kids were incredibly lucky to get to sing there... One night we went on a boat ride on the Seine River. that night i was really sick, my stomach was in knots and i had a killer headache that had me hunched over most of the boat ride. Anther night my host mom's daughter and her fiance came and spent the night in the apartment we were renting [they were gonna spend Christmas in Paris together]. But we went to dinner at a place called "Restaurant American" and yes the WHOLE MENU was all American food. not all-American but just American. there IS a difference. I had a plate called "Tex Mex" it came with onion rings, french fries, quesadilla, wings, chicken breast, ,steak flank, BBQ sauce, and guacamole. OH MY GOODNESS. it was heaven. my host brother Jordan got the same thing, and he was like i love BBQ sauce! and i was like GOOD come visit me in the South! we do it better! haha I was like [to Stuart] you have no idea how homey this is for me! it was funny. and DELICIOUS. and for dessert i had creme brulee, in honor of my daddy. :]

so we got back to Grenoble, Christmas eve. and Christmas eve night we opened all our presents. Then on Christmas day we went to my host mom's parents house for lunch with her brother and his kids. so it was nice. got to see those grandparents one last time before i switch families...though ill see them again before i leave but in like June. i wasn't to have all the family together. or at least go see them again. The grandma is the sweetest. Then the rest of Christmas was very relaxed, and the day after was as well. I just like to be relaxed, I'm not someone who is always busy doing something, and nor do I want to be someone who is always busy doing something. I love when i have free time and don't know what to do with it. I love just being able to mosey about the house without a care in the world. Best feeling ever.

5, 4, 3, 2, 1, Happy New Year!

nothing at all.

i look at photos and think to myself, im gone in the prime of my teenage life. i'm missing what i wish i wasn't and i'm hoping for the worst. i lay in bed at night, then wake up thinking i'm where i am not. it's the worst. homesickness doesn't describe what i feel. i talk to my family and i'm fine. of course i miss them, and i wish i were with them. but i'm not homesick.

i'm saddened by the inevitable. i've left my life and my home, and i can't let go. i can't do it. everyone is moving on, everyone has a life. i have a life. but it's out of my control. i feel lost and out of control though nothing is happening.

i feel in the dark. i feel scared.i feel nothing at all.

Long time no type. :[

i haven't written a blog in a while. but i've been kinda regularly writing in my normal journal, the more personal stuff though.

so i cut and dyed my hair today. :] its cute. the wedge layered cut. but not super short. and there's blond in it like Cassadee Pope's hair. It's cute. :]

let's see what else...Christmas break is coming up. the day after school gets out I'm off to Paris then coming back on Christmas Eve. so fun fun. Stuart leaves the 7th of January. so he has a month left just about. :[ that makes me sad.

Not too much to tell right now...OH! after Christmas break i have to do work in school. My teacher was like [because we had student teacher meetings] "after Christmas you are expected to participate. You're here for school not to just sit and write in your notebook." i was like ughhhh fine. >.< So not really looking forward to that.

Also during Christmas break, and before school starts which is Jan. 4th. I have to switch families. So I'll be living near where my friends live and my school is. AND my Mexicans. :] whom i love so so much. they were like, Michelle you're gonna stay with us more and you'll learn Spanish. I was like okay. haha, so maybe I'll learn two languages while I'm here. <3 but that's all for now, i really can't think of anything to say. Love you mucho grande style. :]