So long, farewell, Auf Wiedersehen, goodbye...

today is a sad day. i had to say goobye to my brother Stuart. for those who don't know...Stuart is from New Zealand. We are both exchange students in France and oddly ended up in the same house [super rare thing]...[but a big  blessing]

Stuart leave officially tomorrow early in the morning, but we had to say our final goodbyes today. Because i switched families this past Sunday, anyway, Since he's from the Southern Hemisphere he came January of 2009 and Leaves January of 2010. It is now January of 2010.


We got to live together for four months. An amazing four months filled with laughter, and well laughter. We didn't let ourselves get into arguments, if something came up we would push it aside and not let it affect us. We had too little time together and knew it needed to be spent well. And we did spend it well. I know have a brother, forever, no matter where either of us are on the earth, whether its France, United States, or New Zealand.

Stuart, god he honestly can not know how much he meant to me. This exchange...i started it out in a different state of mind than i am in right now. I can't describe either states of mind, but it's just changed. And Stuart has helped me realize what this year is all about. He's helped me become confident in who i am as a person, as a daughter, as a student, as a sister, as anything i want to be.

He will always be welcome in my home no matter what. I just can't put into words my emotions right now. Stuart, if you are reading this, [and i know i've said this before but..] thank you. You are hte best exchange brother i could have asked for. And as i sat on the tram going home alone this afternoon after saying goodbye, and i felt a tear i tried so hard to fight back slowly roll down my cheek, i knew that an amazing boy with blonde hair, an odd choice in fashion, and a quick tongue had changed my life.

Stuart [again if you are reading this.] look down at your chest. Then a little to the left. and remember, i'll always be there.

Feels Like I'm Losing;; My Heart Keeps On Bruising.

NEW YORK (The Borowitz Report) - Just days after tying the knot after years of abstinence, Kevin Jonas of the pop sensation the Jonas Brothers stunned his teen aged fans by announcing that "to be honest about it, sex was not worth the wait."

"After we did it, I was kind of like, that's it?" Mr. Jonas told reporters at a New York press conference.

As to whether Mr. Jonas' bride agreed with his "that's it?" assessment, Mr. Jonas remarked, "That's what she said." <-- dude how funny is that? Gotta love Kevin Jonas. I personally think sex isn't gonna be all that it's cracked up to be. But i'm still in no rush to have it. It's not something that needs to be done right now. And I'm a "true christian" for saying this but, i DO think sex is more than just sex, it's a bond between two people, who intend to spend their lives together. But i just hope Kevin and Danielle hold off on the children for awhile. Even though Nick is doing his side project, i still expect some things in the next couple years from my three favorite boys. **Okay i just need to say this, look at their faces in the picture above. I think those are the faces they all will make in bed. Joe is like "Oh yea!" and Nick is like "this is great" and Kevin is like "What the heck is going on?!"

Moving on, literally, today is moving day. Tonight, i will sleep in my new and HUGE bed. I'm excited I'll be able to stretch! You have no idea what that means to me! haha But the bed is really hard, and i hate hard beds, though i usually end up sleeping good, i just don't like the way they feel when I'm first trying to fall asleep. idk I'm picky. But I'm excited to move, in the next..TWO months i have a lot going on. Mainly in Feb. i have a lot going on...So I'm excited. I'm hoping these last five and a half months will be smooth and I'll learn a lot more and hopefully speak more and more. Then in the end when i have dinner with both of my families my first family will say "Wow you've improved so much!" I want that to happen. Now honestly I'm not very proactive. That's just not my personality. I've more like 'it will happen if it wants to...' that's pretty much my life attitude, with school, with work, with anything. I'm just a naturally relaxed person, i don't stress the little things, and i barely stress the big things. It's only life. I don't know, i just...i can't bring myself to stress about things, and when i try to progress towards something i end up just usually slowing everything down in the end. je sais pas...

Anyway, today is my big sister's 20th birthday. And it's weird to think that she's 20 years old. I'm only 16. It's just weird to realize, like finally realize we're growing up. Her boyfriend of like, pshh idk a year[?] is like my old brother. I miss him just as much as i miss my actual family. And I'm having to start and think about college, and what major I'd like to go into [though I've known for years, I'm one of those people] and look at what college's offer though courses and a degree for it. And i have to start thinking about scholarships and it's crazy! When i get back home I'll be a senior in school. I'll start my senior year in high school with my restricted license. Yea i turn 17 [the age in SC where you get your FULL license no matter what] two months after school starts. MEANING, if i start college in the fall of 2011, I'll start college when I'm 17 and not 18 like about 90% of students who go to college. And I'm hoping for university. Not tech/comm college [like my sister, though i love her] I just have bigger plans. Well, i'm going to stop here, i want to watch a movie to pass time.

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